I am a serious work in progress. I always have been. Those closest to me know I am ALWAYS moving on - sometimes ahead; sometimes not so ahead - from one place to another, physically and mentally - searching. For the first time, in a long time, I've made the decision not to move. In any way shape or form. I've decided to embrace where I am and make no decisions about a next step. I am simply going to live in the world I am in NOW without a plan to take a next step, jump ship, or go on a a walkabout. Whatever you want to call it.
This doesn't mean I don't have goals. I do. But, they are about accomplishing some personal - interior - work that I know I have to be in one, somewhat secure, place to make happen. For me. And, me alone.
It feels weird. I am a gypsy at heart. But, enough transition has happened over the past 10 years for me - continual, constant transition - and I need a moment...many months, really, to catch my breath. So, I am going to take the time here in Seattle to settle down a bit and see what sediment rises to the top.
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I like this idea - very much - of just being in the moment. I'm not actually very good at it at all but it's something I'm working on - beginning with deciding to just stay put and not try so hard to plan what happens next. It's very quiet in the moments that I can really be present - quiet in the best kind of way.
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